Breaking the Silence

I haven't posted for a while - It has been crazy busy. I have been thinking about a lot though and just haven't had the time to write it down. Things like - why are there politics even in the world of DS (why can't we just come together)? What is real support? How DS can change some relationships. Stuff like that. Maybe someday there will be posts on those subjects.

Quinn has been doing great. She is more active - not crawling, but getting closer. She is scooting around. She will see a neurologist next month because her head periodically drops. Hard to explain, easier to demonstrate but obviously can't in this format. I am really proud of myself that I am not worrying about that right now. Not much you can do about it now and we just have to wait to see what they say. One day at a time....

I am also proud of how I reacted to a situation over the weekend. We were at a picnic and there was a little girl there who was born a few days before Quinn. She is doing all this stuff - walking, talking, getting herself a drink of water - she was a little spit-fire. Normally there would be this pain in my heart at those time - grieving the loss of my dream of a typical daughter. But this time, I had none of that. I noticed all this little girl could do and found it interesting the difference between Quinn and her, but the pain wasn't there. That was kind of cool. I know the pain may come back some time (it can be like that sometimes, just relapsing out of nowhere), but for now I am celebrating.

-Karyn